"Fragmented" and "Fleeting", (2023) are depictions of emotional flashbacks. They are vivid manifestations of past traumas that are only felt, not seen. Difficult to identify and even more so to describe, emotional flashbacks are a key symptom of complex PTSD. I made these works during a time of intense reflection while undergoing EMDR therapy and I thought a lot about how these flashbacks feel so surreal, a true blend of the past and present, all-encompassing and always somehow just on the very tip of my tongue.

When planning these drawings, I pulled prose from personal writings and film photos taken from years prior. I scanned the images, altered them digitally, transferred the images to paper, and painstakingly rendered them. I didn't think about it much at the time, but the process is feels metaphoric. They are meditations in graphite. These works later informed the third piece, "Memories of Chatsworth (Brittany's Mom)" 2024.

Brittany's mom is buried at Oakwood Memorial Park Cemetery in Chatsworth, CA, where I took this photograph. Brittany is one of my closest friends and this piece is a living memory of their relationship. Brittany's mom had fought and beaten breast cancer during Brittany's childhood and was in remission until Brittany's senior year of college. Brittany was her mother's primary caregiver until she passed away on September 16, 2020. Like most mother-daughter relationships their relationship was sometimes fraught and complex, but a fiercely protective and unconditional love continues to reveal itself more and more after Brittany's mom's passing. Although I am merely a spectator, there is something so transcendent in their relationship that I can only attempt to replicate its devastating beauty.